Just a Blog About My Life

So i just feel like writing something since i haven't written anything in here in a while since my last one. And today is not about makeup or fashion. I have been having so many things going on in my mind right now that i feel like i cant think. So i never told u guys about my life or whats going on in my life so here it is. Ive been focusing on school and doing my best to work hard in my online classes and also thinking of finding a new job or an internship. But this isnt what has been on my mind for a while, it is actually about a guy i like.

So there is this guy that i started liking and ive known him for almost 3 yrs now. I started liking him about a few months ago when we started hanging out with each other. I met him from a co-ed fraternity that i joined in 2006 from my old school called Alpha Phi Omega. During that time i didnt really think about liking him even though my preference in guys is white guys. I have liked white guys since high school. And i actually had my very first boyfriend in 2007. Yeah its a shocker that i just had my first bf when i was 25. So i had been a virgin for a long time. lol

Well anyways we probably hung out once or twice but with a group of friends but not really just the two of us. And by the way for privacy reasons im not going to say what his name is. So anyways just the beginning of summer of this year was when i started to like him. We went out on our first date on June 20. I remember the date since that was my friends birthday and i told her that i couldnt go to her birthday thing because i was hanging out with someone that day. So me and him (lets just call him Drew lol) went to watch a movie and then had some ice cream and then drove around. I remember before i left my house i told my cousin how nervous i was and she even said that she was nervous for me lol.

And then July 15 was the last time i saw him. He was having a going away dinner with just a couple of close friends and invited me. So i show up late because i didnt know what time he was getting off of work on Wednesday and i just came from church that day. Everyone was already finished eating so they were all just chatting at the table. I grabbed a chair and sat right next to him. We talked and then i started texting him. So i told him how i was going to miss him and he told me that he was going to miss me also. And also told me how he was jealous when i started going out with my first boyfriend. For me it was a shocker because i didnt know that anyone else liked me besides my boyfriend at the time. My boyfriend and I were only together for 2 months so during the breakup i was depressed, so depressed that i felt like i didnt want to live anymore. So when "Drew" told me that he was jealous of my boyfriend and i going out, he also told me how excited he was to go on a date with me which i thought was really cute and sweet.

Oh yeah he had a going away dinner because he was moving to Connecticut for his job. And that is where the main company is. So ever since then i have been missing him like crazy like hes always on my mind. But luckily i can still focus on school even though im thinking about him so much lol. Well during the couple of weeks that he has been there, he asked me if im going to visit him and when im going to visit him. I told him that i would love to visit him but maybe in December because that is when im on vacation.

And for the first few weeks that hes been there ive been texting him and asking him how he is and how work is and he would respond back to me. But now i hardly text him because sometimes he doesnt text back to me. I mean i know that we arent going out but im just hoping that he doesnt meet anyone like a girl and that doesnt leave me hanging. So there are two reasons why i think hes probably not responding to my texts or even calling me. One of the reasons i think is that he probably met someone thats why hes been ignoring my text. And another reason is maybe he doesnt want to always tell me what hes doing or how hes doing because he wants to tell me when he sees me again so that he has something to tell me when hes here. So those are the things that have been going through my mind right now. So every night i have been praying and i am hoping that the second reason is why he hasnt been texting me back.

So i hope that I didnt bore you from my long story. That is all for now until next time...